Baby Pictures January 13, 2009

So I realized that in all of the hustle and bustle of life, I haven’t taken many pictures of the girls lately.  I had a mommy “meltdown” last night.  I was looking at a picture of the girls in the NICU while I was changing Kate.  I couldn’t believe how quickly my little 2 1/2 pound girl was already an 11 pounder.  It goes so quickly.  I started crying, while George just kinda laughed at me.  Sometimes I feel like with twins, I don’t get to watch them grow up because I am constantly busy.  The next thing I know they’ll be walking.  I think that is like that with all children though.  I am just so grateful for the two little blessings God has given our family.  They enrich our lives everyday.  Kate is actually sitting in my lap “helping” me write this. 

I know that developmentally they are supposed to go by their due date, which makes them only 8 weeks old, but I think they are way ahead of the game.  Anytime I put them down on their bellies they flops over., which makes it a little difficult to do tummy time.  They have got the rolling over thing down.  Kate also can push herself up on her hands and raise her head 90 degrees, things that a 3 or 4 month old should be doing.  They both stand when you hold them up.  I am just so proud of their achievements.  They also made it from 10:45-8:00 the other night.  Of course, the next two nights, they woke me up at 5:00, but we are still working on that sleeping through the night thing. 

I put them back on a 3 hour schedule because they had been sleeping through the night and to get my milk production up.  The 3 hour schedule works except that I feel like I am constantly feeding.  The milk production part still isn’t enough for two babies.  I can produce enough for one for each meal.  It’s so frustrating and disappointing because formula costs so much.  I probably have a week left of frozen milk and then I will have to start feeding one baby formula at each meal.  I think I’ll alternate every meal as to who gets the formula.  If I figured it correctly it would cost us close to $300 a month if both babies were on just formula.  So the breastfeeding thing didn’t work out exactly as planned, but then again, nothing about my pregnancy worked out as planned, so maybe I should stop trying to make square things fit into a round hole.  I want what is best for my babies and it’s frustrating me that my body won’t do that. 

George is doing better everyday.  He’s able to put more pressure on his foot when he walks, but is still very reliant on the crutches.  He’s getting a little stir crazy because he’s cooped up in the house for most of the day.  All I have to say to that is, “Welcome to my world, honey.”  Lately, I have been having cravings for a normal life.  What I mean by normal is being able to go out and do stuff with the girls (like normal families can do), going to church on Sunday (both services), having time to spend with my husband, etc.  I know that when babies come normal changes drastically, but our normal is still not even “normal” because they are preemies and we are in the middle of RSV season.  Please don’t take this as me complaining.  I think it’s me looking back on all of the free time George and I used to have and wishing I had been more content, which is easy to say on the other side of it.  I don’t really even have regular quiet times anymore.  My day is so consumed by taking care of the babies and my house and my husband that I have really neglected my relationship with the Lord.  It’s embarassing for me to admit that considering all that He has done for us over the last year.  The other day I found myself craving time with the Lord, which is good that there is still a desire that even at all.  I am a creature of habit and routine.  I’m okay with the same ol’ same ol’ and life has been anything but that for us lately.  I am grateful that I have a relationship with a loving, forgiving, and gracious God.  He knew that my life would be this difficult and somehow He is sustaining me through it.

 

Hannah

Hannah-The Love Bug

Hannah

Hannah

Hannah

Hannah wrestling with Kate

My Little Love Bugs

Happy Love Bugs

Tummy Time

Kate

Kate-My Little Love Bug

Kate-She found her fist

Kate & Fist

Daddy Feeding Kate

Kate-Holding Her Head Up!

Kate-Tummy Time

Kate